How my life changed (part 2)

I have always been a creative guy. I play the guitar, I have a burning passion for photography and I love to write. I think the reason I enjoy it is that it is never the same. Routine and uniformity may be comforting to some but they are a big turn-off for me. Even working in the corporate world I always asked to be placed in the flexible spots, as being able to change focus often would keep me motivated.

When I was bitten by the acting bug I was at a crossroads in my life. I was starting to be successful in my corporate day-job, I was also loving my travel photography (funded by the day job) and I had just been captivated by the world of acting. Of course, I decided to do it all as intensely as I could!

During 2014 I worked long hours at work, travelled the world with my camera and also continued my acting training. For the first half of the year it looked like I could have my cake and eat it too! Of course, I got overly ambitious and it ended up taking its toll.

By October of 2014 I was working 50+ hours a week and also enrolled in 2 different part time acting courses which took up 4 of my evenings. I also kept on taking photographs of everything I could. It was rough going but I thought that I had to push through it if I wanted to achieve my goal. The fact that I had no idea what my goal was felt secondary at that time.

By the time 2015 came around, I knew I had to make a choice. I couldn’t keep up with everything I was doing as I could feel the ugly tentacles of depression creeping up on me. I had also started a relationship with a wonderful woman and wanted time to dedicate to that. So I decided to cut back on acting. I dropped out of one of the courses, kept on travelling the world with my camera (and now also with a wonderful companion!) and assumed that acting was just not in my future.

However, there was this little voice in the back of my head that would not shut up! Thanks to that voice I kept on saving money, though now I was saving “for a rainy day” rather than for acting. I think deep down I knew what that money would be used for but I just wasn’t ready to admit it to myself.

Mid way thought 2015 I finished my second year at the Gaiety School of Acting and decided not to enrol in the third and final year. My work was ramping up and I had some big photography expeditions planned for that year so I decided that I could live without acting. It seemed like an easy decision and I just went with it. Thus started one of the most frustrating yet enlightening years of my life.